Wednesday, September 22, 2010


Well I have good news!!!

We are so excited!!! I never would have guessed it was a girl. Actually I would have bet money that it was a boy but I would have been wrong!! It's a little girl! Mother and baby are both healthy and happy. I felt her move for the first time the other about weird. After I realized what it was it was pretty cool.

Now for the fun and the nursery!! I went straight to Joann Fabrics after the ultrasound and got some fabric to make a diaper bag and some cute burp cloths. Then I'll move onto the nursery. Mabel and I were talking for almost an hour about how to do the nursery.

Speaking of Mabel...she's psyched. So is the rest of the family. Mother went with The Man and I to the ultrasound. She was completely amazed at our modern technology. She never had an ultrasound with us girls. She thought it was so cool that they were able to look at the baby's brain and heart. And of course seeing her grandchild was great too.

I have a feeling the next 20 weeks or so are going to go quick. Now there is so much to do!!! I have to completely pack up my studio (which I started this past weekend) and make it and the rest of the house ready for baby. I plan on making 80% of the bedding for the nursery so I have to do all that. The Man wants to put bead board up in the nursery which will take a bit of time. We also have to paint a couple pieces of furniture to paint and fix up. Luckily we have all the major pieces of furniture for the nursery. My wonderful mother in law found us a crib, Mother is giving us a glider that she isn't using, I found a pretty changing table at Goodwill for $20, and I have a chest of drawers that was in my bedroom as a child. We only need a couple small pieces and tons o' decor!!!

We also have to come up with a name!!! We have her middle name, Grace, already but we can not decide on a first name. It will be a battle but I'm sure we will be able to agree on something. I will let you know as soon as we decide. I will also post some pictures of the nursery in progress.

Until then I wish all of you happy tidings!!! Ya'll make it a good one!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Almost Healthy

I've been sick again and finally am starting to feel better. I had to take 2 days off work, which was well needed. I got some things done around the house but I was cautious not to over do it. I really need to start feeling better. The doc said its a bad sinus infection and gave me an anti-biotic. I'm hoping that it kicks whatever I've been battling for the past month.

My loving girls took care of me the whole time, while also taking advantage of the fact that I wasn't in the mood for discipline. They both lounged on the couch as did I.

In other news, we have started "Project Re-do Home". The Man and I have been wanting to get the house in order before the baby come, and we kicked off this past week. We started by taking an old 30s vanity I had and turning it into 2 bedside tables. I got the idea here. I just love that website and will be using it for other projects. Then we took the console table from our bedroom and used it in the living room with some re-arranging involved. I will post some before and after pictures once I get them off of my cell phone! We still have a lot to do but it's a start.

Going back to work today was a bit hard, I'm really starting to dis-like that place. It didn't help that my manager was giving me a hard time about being out. I really wanted to tell her "I quit" right, then, and there....but I didn't. I was feeling pretty sorry for myself when I took my lunch break. I was driving around town because I just had to get out of the office. Without thinking I pulled into Goodwill parking lot and just sat there thinking. Then it hit could get so much worse. I thought about a family friend of ours who is past her due date and has nothing for her son; no diapers stocked up, no car seat to bring him home, no crib to put him in. Immediately I felt ashamed of myself for being so dramatic with things. SO.....I went into Goodwill and bought her a bag full of clothes for the baby. All kinds of stuff, even threw in some bibs and cute little hats. I'll send them off to her next week because I think I'll be purchasing some more things for her.

I've also decided to start selling Gold Canyon Candles. Mother has been selling them for a while now and I LOVE THEM!!!!! They beat any candle on the market and I have tried them all. No candle smells up a room like these do. The Man is obsessed with them!!!! We need the extra money so I thought this would be the best way to get it and with the holidays coming up they should sell well (at least I'm praying they do). Ironically Mabel has started selling them as well so it truly is a family thing!! I still have to get all the info together but that shouldn't take long. I'll let you know how it goes.

I'm an really getting excited about my ultrasound next week. Only 8 more days and we find out what we're having. The Man had a dream last night that it was a girl and she had my father's blue eyes. We will see =) I can't wait to make that post!

I'll leave you at that. I hope that everyone has a good week and try to do something good for others!! Ya'll take care!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

For the past several months I haven't been feeling quite like myself. I feel like I've lost myself somewhere along the way. I'm sure everyone gets like this once in a while, but for me its been going on for a while. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy, its just that I can feel that part of me isn't the same; like I'm lacking somewhere, like I'm not grounded...just floating some how. I look back at myself when I was in college and find that whatever I'm missing now, I had then. I was more spiritual, more connected, maybe even more sure of myself. As a result I've been trying to get back there, where ever "there" is. I've been reflecting on it a lot and one person keeps coming back, an old professor of mine who truly changed my life. I recently re-connected with him and instantly felt better; not "there" yet but better. He reminded me of a poem that I used to love. He would read to his students at the end of class, kind of like a purification, and when he read this poem it spoke to me, then and now. Its amazing that after all these years, he and this poem still have a power over me. The poem is called "Where I Was That Day" by Kim Blaeser. I'd like to share it with you...just in case you need some grounding as much as I do =)

Where I Was That Day

It wasn’t just the pill bugs
gray, many-legged and pulling that stunt
like they always did
closing in on themselves
contracting into the tiny round mass
like an image of the origin circle.
And it wasn’t the turtle alone either
who became so neatly one half of the earth’s sphere.

It was partly that day when I stopped at the little creek
and noticed the funny bumps on the floating log
and how they seemed to be looking at me
and how they were really little heads with beady bulging eyes
and how when I came back a half an hour later
the bumps had been rearranged on that log.

It was partly the butterflies that would materialize
out of the flower blossoms
and the deer that appeared and disappeared into the forest
while standing stalk still
whose shape would be invisible one minute
and would stand out clearly the next
like the image in one of the connect-the-dot puzzles.

It was the stick bugs, the chameleon
the snakes that became branches
the opossum who was dead then suddenly alive.
And it was me who fit and saw one minute so clearly
and then stumbled blind the next
that made me think we are all always finding our place
in the great sphere of creation,
that made me know I could learn a way
to pull the world around me too
to color myself with earth and air and water
and so become indistinguishable
to match my breath to the one
to pulse in and out with the mystery
to be both still and wildly alive in the same moment
to be strangely absent from myself
and yet feel large as all creation
to know
to know
to know and to belong
while the spell holds
learning to hold it a little longer each time.

That’s where I was that day
I watched you from the arbor
never blinking
while you looked all about for me
and then turned back home
thinking to find me in another place
while I was there everywhere you looked.
I knew then the stories about Geronimo were true
and that he did turn to stone
while the cavalries passed him by
mistook him for just a part of the mountain
when he had really become the whole mountain
and all the air they breathed
and even the dust beneath their horse’s hooves.

And I walk about and try to find the place I was that day
but getting there seems harder now
I feel heavier, my spirit weighted down
and I’m thinking I must shed something
like the animals shed their hair or skin
lose even their antlers annually
while I hold on to everything.
And I’m thinking I must change my colors
like the rabbit the ptarmigan, the weasel.
And I’m thinking I must spin a cocoon
grow wings and learn to fly.
And I’m thinking I must hibernate and fast
feed off my own excess for a season
and then perhaps emerge
in the place I was that day
and stay there longer this time.

And I walk about and watch the creatures:
the tree toads becoming and unbecoming a part of the trunk
the rocks in my path that crack open into grasshoppers and fly away
the spider who hangs suspended before me
and then disappears into mist or air
and I feel comforted
knowing we are all
in this puzzle together,
knowing we are all just learning
to hold the spell
a little longer each time.

Just reading it makes me cry and feel better all at the same time. She completely describes how I feel. Now I just have to figure out how to get back there; that's the hard part. It took me a long time to find myself in the first place and now I have to do it again.

He also sent me this picture of myself. I'm praying, in a traditional Native American way, way back when I was in college. That's where I need to get back to. Its funny how he knew exactly what I needed, even though I hadn't spoken to him in over a year. It makes me believe even more that Creator brings people into your life for a reason, whether they stay only a short time or forever really doesn't matter. For me this professor has been around a long time, and he is still teaching me.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

17 Weeks and Counting

I had my monthly doctor's appointment today and all is well. I've only gained 2 pounds! The baby is healthy...heart is beating away. I've started "showing" and had to go get some maternity clothes since nothing in my closet would fit. We did a routine blood work scan for some birth defects but most importantly we scheduled my 20 week ultrasound for September 21. This is the BIG ONE...when we find out the sex of the baby!!!! I'm so EXCITED!!!!! I really can't wait. All the way home I was thinking about how I get to start on the nursery soon. So far I'm looking for something like this for a girl.


Although I'm more of a bee person I love the color combination with this set. I've kinda been leaning toward strawberries instead of ladybugs but I can't find anything like that. So, if it's a girl, I'll probably end up making most of the bedding myself. I just love the thought of using red instead of pink. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE PINK, its just so typical. Plus what is more country than strawberries??

And something like this for a boy


We are really outdoorsy people and I think the forest animals would be great. We love to camp, hike, bird watch, fish, etc. I can just see all this outdoor stuff in his room. So cute!

I still feel that it's a boy. Don't know why but either way I will be happy. I know The Man really wants a boy but deep down he'll be just as happy with a little girl too. Personally, I think having a little girl scares the heck out of him. I think he's afraid that he'll turn into the worlds' biggest push over and to tell the truth...HE WILL =) If it is a girl, I have to prepare for World War III....we have to decide on a name. The Man doesn't even want to discuss girl names at the moment. I guess he has a point...there's a 50/50 chance that it's not a girl so why talk about it. Only time will tell. I know Mother and Mabel are crossing their fingers for a girl. They're about the only one's that think it's a girl. Almost everyone says it's a boy. Maybe I should be collecting bets....hhhuuummmm...sounds like a good idea. LOL.

In other news: Mabel is coming in for the holiday weekend along with my Aunt and Uncle from Illinois. I'm so excited to see all 3 of them. It is going to be a great weekend here in Middle Tennessee....the high is only supposed to be in the low 80s!!! How great is that?! It will be nice to see everyone, it's been a while. I miss my family like crazy especially now that I'm pregnant. I want to be able to share everything with them but I'll settle for what I can get. I'm hoping that Mabel is able to come back for my ultrasound. I can have 3 people in the room with me and The Man and Mother have filled 2. If not then its I said I want to share everything with the family.

I'm hoping to take some pictures this weekend and share them with you. I hope everyone has a great long weekend. Spend it with family!!! Until next time: Ya'll make it a good one!